I rely on me

I am a testament

that it's possible

to reconstruct the ashes

if you burn yourself

alive

24/7

You are captain

of this ship I engine

This boat moves

because I move it

You steer

me clear

of danger

Navigate the ice

and the rocks

Guide me safely home

Guide me safely home

I write good morning love

she responds the same

it's amazing all the same

You take what you can get on days like

today

4 on 4 off

like a work schedule

not on my side dear

this is a 7 day a week gig

this is a never ending

unconditional

irrational

desperate love

sadly the hope I have in her will

only make her hurt

So I'll hurt

tuck this away

inside the breast pocket

of my fanciest coat

I'm no savior

just a man committed to her smile

and all the ways I've learned to make

that happen

hope this helps

its moments away

and he can feel it

watch the clock

tick

like a countdown

remember the time that

he said what he said

when he made you smile

when he made you proud

when he made you forget

prior pains

he was a father when

yours went away

he was a rock

with a pomp

a stud and he knew it

he won't be there to hold you

but he'll still be there when you fall

stay strong

the sun will still rise

with one extra angel to help

it on its way

Mizar and Alcor

we are binary stars

drawn together

by light and gravity

only to illuminate the other

your sadness

is

my sadness

your fear

my fear

your love

my love

the list could forever continue

I tremble at the idea

of you and me darling

like infinite density

its fictional

but its physics baby

we will occupy this space

at the same time

completely enveloped

in the other

this love is science

it's mystery

and it's magic

and you

you are the Answer

I've been waiting for

Being sober is over......rated

This soberness

(early morning birds chirping)

has me hating the

emotions that come with it

never knew what it was like to actually

feel or heal

a wound

just pour that OLD NO. 7

on it until it numbs

or i pass out

it's easy to smile

when my nights

are always three shots in

three lines

out

been self medicating since i was 14

girls must of walked hand

in

hand

with the drugs

so much older now

I've un-stitched the pabst

from my right hand

and the glass of whiskey

from my left

and all I want to do is hold you

Truth oh! Truth

She has someone for that

She has someone for that

remind yourself

of the simple facts

So when you want to help

just tell yourself

Don't lift a Goddamn finger

She has someone for that

Wishes are for suckers

I wish I was from Canada

I wish I grew up where you grew up

I would of been years ahead of where

I am now

I would fit

This small town sham

holds me too tight

with its views on fashion

and lifestyles

Fuck you...

Just because I look like this

Dress like this

Do what I do

Only means I'm comfortable

yet

I'm a foreigner whether or not

my residency claims it

Won't you

Claim me

Please

You let me be free

In your world I'm normal

In your world I'm brilliant

In your world I'd be me

I'm so sick of this skin

it only weighs me down

This has to stop

There is no second place

not in my world

I've never seen anything but blue ribbons

In fact I don't even know

what the other colors are

does anyone

I will love you harder

and more fiercely than you've

ever known

I already do

I can barely contain it

now in this secrecy

It drips from my soul

into every ligament

This isn't me love

This is pain and pleasure

tucked securely behind

pleasant conversation

I turn every word you say into

a piece of my art...

which ever medium I choose

Its you now

She is everywhere now...

Cliche

To say

that no one compares

as your name leaves my mouth

my lungs gasp for air

This is truth

as every moment of my day

revolves is some way

around this souls' cry

for suicide

but believe you me

I'm not leaving honey

I want to burn alive

in hopes that someone better

is buried inside

To cleanse myself of the ashes

Maybe then these limbs would be worthy of you

This is honesty

So brutal it's tough to express

But I'll try

I promise every day I'll try

I will tell you that

the stars remind me of your hips

That the cool breeze touches like your kiss

that being in your arms

is merely the result of the purist wish

There aren't words for this

Today I feel alive

Thank you for that