Sights are set

I am no more an assassin

than I am a poet

I breathe to heavy

I shake too much

My mind never clear enough

never still enough

yet I sit in this chair

steady my legs

pop my fingers

inhale

exhale

and type

I'm not good enough to kill

but I'll severely wound

everyone

Somethings Stay With You

I haven't been in love

since I vacationed in Mexico

Lust

hot like that

Tijuana summer

aged just enough

to know the difference

between love

and tequila

Sweaty

on those dusty streets

flip flops march

through pick pockets

and small dark children

offering "chicle"

walked along that pier

out towards coronado

it seemed to go on forever

but everything ends

everything

it is what it is

she asks for love

poems

as

if

they

ooze out of me like

lyrics in an acoustic

set at some

dark coffee house

but I don't play

guitar any more

and

I hate chai

but I will say this

you're as important today

as you were when we met

and my love for you and everything

you are

you do

you live for

only grows exponentially

it will continue to do so

until the universe recognizes

us

and finally concedes that we will not

end

a city weeps with me

Woke up this morning to find

that I'd been widowed by my

heart

Left this hole inside my chest

serrated edges

with a surgeon's precision

It's true what they say

there ain't no sunshine when

she's gone

the song sings

clear and true

that I'm not myself

when

I'm not with you

its overcast

in the forecast

minutes cease to pass

alcohol will not last

everyone asks

about my laugh

but

thats gone too

my smile in a

head on collision

with

your absence

I'll end this

now

Don't want this piece

to become

a sloppy love jingle

I'm no

gym class hero

I am

however

a ski ball champion

Yes

I brought up that again

because the memories
of you and me

are the

memories that I keep

the moments that I save

the perfect recollections

I'm taking to my grave

They'll find me

with my smile in my

casket

Because if I live and die

for you

then I've lived

my life with passion

To Really Notice

I sometimes wonder

what you see

when you see

me

Do you notice me

Do you notice

when you walk into

a room

my mood

my day

my life changes

Do you notice

how when the light

comes crashing through

these windows

it casts shadows

from your hair across your face

Do you notice

your smile

when you laugh

your nose crinkles

a little and its perfection

Do you notice

that when we dance

the room stops to watch

Do you notice

these minutes apart

spent like small eternities

waiting for a spark

of your existence

Do you notice me

Like I notice you

older now

its hot in this town tonight

the heat makes everyone

a little crazy

sweaty

as the alcohol produces

louder screams

shorter tempers

sloppier smiles

easier girls

violent men

I was a part of each of those

at some point in my life

still am

but tonight this couch

is comfortable

30 is closer than I had planned

I am

No one knows what its

like to be a God

but I do