two hundred million

aged 5 years since yesterday

I'll be 50 before I know it

and it happens in

the smallest of increments

lived through everything

struggled against the wind

and

the rain

one second at a time

if I could only remember them all

the second I met her

the second I left her

at 2,000,003 I hoped for the best

at 2,000,006 I was let down

I curse at most of them

feel blessed in few

most just pass me by

I'm keeping a couple in

my pocket just in case